Lie down and look up at the ceiling and breathe with those curiously fragile lungs of yours and remind yourself: Don’t worry. Don’t worry. All is as it was meant to be. It was meant to be lonely and terrifying and unfair and heaving. Don’t worry.
May you find love. May you find it wherever it’s been hidden. May you find who’s been hiding it and exact revenge upon them. As the old song goes, love is all you need... to destroy your enemies.