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redcheekdaysToday I heard my heart screeching like a subway train
loudly enough to remind me it was still human
loudly enough to hurt
loudly enough to remind me it was still human
loudly enough to hurt
redcheekdays
redcheekdaysThere are times I cannot stand
in my own skin; it lies
on me like a visitor. Oh, it happens
without warning, creeping across
my shoulders before I wake; behind
my eyes when I scrape my tongue.
in my own skin; it lies
on me like a visitor. Oh, it happens
without warning, creeping across
my shoulders before I wake; behind
my eyes when I scrape my tongue.
from For The Year Of The Insane
Feb. 14th, 2017 06:48 pmredcheekdaysI am ugly,
submerged in my own past
and my own madness
submerged in my own past
and my own madness
from Oryx and Crake
Feb. 14th, 2017 04:55 pmredcheekdaysHe doesn’t know which is worse, a past he can’t regain or a present that will destroy him if he looks at it too clearly. Then there’s the future. Sheer vertigo.
from cum shot
Feb. 14th, 2017 04:53 pmredcheekdayslet ruin end here, let him find honey
where there was once a slaughter
let him enter the lion’s cage
& find a field of lilacs
let this be the healing
& if not, let it be
where there was once a slaughter
let him enter the lion’s cage
& find a field of lilacs
let this be the healing
& if not, let it be
redcheekdaysWhat no one ever talks about is how dangerous hope can be. Call it forgiveness with teeth.
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Jan. 31st, 2017 03:46 pmredcheekdaysDon’t fall in love with hope— it can be insatiable.
from Purgatory
Jan. 31st, 2017 03:38 pmredcheekdaysLove has been gone
for some time now.
I have sawed through my own leg
trying to find the way back.
for some time now.
I have sawed through my own leg
trying to find the way back.
from Slade House
Jan. 31st, 2017 03:21 pmredcheekdaysGrief is an amputation, but hope is incurable haemophilia: you bleed and bleed and bleed.
from Royal Heart
Jan. 31st, 2017 10:53 amredcheekdaysI can’t live here
In my body, I mean
I can’t live in my body all the time it feels too much
So if I ever feel far away know I am not gone
I am just underneath my grief
Adjusting the dial on my radio faith so I can take this life with all of it’s love and all of its loss
In my body, I mean
I can’t live in my body all the time it feels too much
So if I ever feel far away know I am not gone
I am just underneath my grief
Adjusting the dial on my radio faith so I can take this life with all of it’s love and all of its loss